Killing Time

Journal Entry 0



             John A. Sinclair was alone in his bedroom.He was feverish and exhausted. He was tired from a long day of work.He was 44 years old, of average weight, and six feet tall. People ignored him and hated the way that he droned along into nothingness.

             I would fix this, starting tonight. Whenever i saw someone I hated I would star stalking them at a safe distance. Absorbing their routines and companionships. Then after a brief analysis, I would end them. At first it was hard and too tempting for it to be someone I knew.

             Then I had to make sure they had no connections to eachother. That was the hardiest part. None of the same coworkers or lovers. I would go online and research their histories. most of all, I had to do this with no malice or bloodlust.

             I would shop for hours, looking for potential victims. I had only a few rules. No one under 16. Only white males. Lastly no one famous.

             I workout off and on. Not to chase or overpower. To keep myself busy. I hated routine but tried to keep the murder scene sterile. I tried my best not to let it become ritualistic.

             It was tempting to keep a souvenir or take my time. You don't waste time if your killing someone and you don't keep trophies like some pretentious hunter. You kill to kill, thats it. Always wear gloves. Plain dark shoes are the best as well.

             Don't waste time worrying about being caught. Just do your best to minimize it. Never in daytime. Never in crowded places. If you can't do it within five minutes its not safe.

             I spent most of my time at home. You don't want to be seen at too many of the same places. Try not to have a job with alot of small talk or teamwork. Be polite but don''t go to social events. Don't drink or smoke.

             Have a safe hobby for when your alone. You must keep your  mind sharp as you can. Watch for chances for easy kills. You'd be surprised how often, someones bad day can make you lucky. Most of all be patient.

             Anyone at anytime can be killed. I am just there as a reminder. Avoid eating out. Victims in a relationship or large families are not a good idea. You might think it would be easy to have then be the patsy.It's better to play it safe by not having any evidence to point to anyone.

             You don't plan it, you wait for it. It's more art than science. You get a rhythm for how close to be, and when to watch them. Just remember this is a thankless job.

             Everyone has the urge to kill. I don't suppress or indulge it. I let my victims tell me when it's easiest to end them. try not to let it get too messy. don't be afraid to get a little dirty.

             Sometimes you have wait weeks, other times its only a few days. it almost seems as if subconscious all my victims want to die. Every person i stalk has a weakness that can be exploited. The surprising thing is the amount of times I've saved them before I kill them. They walk so close to death, its ironic.

             No one is special, so never treat any kill that way. Death is surprisingly relaxing. One minute they're buzzing around like a bee, the next like a sleeping kitten. It's easy to get bored. You think killing would be all fun and games.

             But that's how you get caught. I'm still surprised I haven't been. I don't consider myself to be very exceptional. This is just something I do when its convenient. Never challenge yourself with this.

             Killing stupid people is harder  than you might think. They tend to group up the most. The more intelligent are susceptible due to their animosity for stupidity. I find the best victims at parks. They tend to like to walk by themselves more.

             I'm sorry if i don't give you more details of myself. Then It would be easier to catch me. Thus harder for me to catch my victims. I thought if I write  these I could keep track of any mistakes, Avoiding any urge to share my secrets.